I need some simple solution. Like, I want to check my e-mail and receive this message:

From: The Powers That Be
To: Kat
Subject: No Worries.

Dear Kat,

We have examined your file, and have found you to be particularly brilliant. We have been advised to let you know that everything will be fine. And, forigve us for the liberty, but we would be remiss if we did not mention how stunning you have looked of late. Once again, everything is fine. That is all.

Cordially,
TPTB

That look on my face, you see, is not calm. It is the sublime stoicism of panic.

God....restlessness? despair? what do I call it? I have no clue. I'm almost done everything for the semester, I just need to do a little more reading and take one final, and that's it...but everything hangs in the balance. Berkeley's grad. application stuff needs to be postmarked by the 10th...everything's done... excpet two little letters of recommendation that have not yet found their way to the career center...God....I dunno...I hate relying on other people. Why can't the fact that I turned everything else in on time count for something? I have to sit here squirming for two more days to see whether things get in on time, whether I can even APPLY to my number one choice for school. Everything else I can take. the homework, the anxiety, the parents, but not now. :::sigh::: Maybe I've done something wrong, but I'm not sure what.
And I don't want to do this again next year...